5 Weeks.....and then SUMMER!

I can't believe there's only 5 weeks left till spring semester is done! I'm excited but then again I think I can wait. Seeing how I'll be taking summer classes...ug. And they're going to be a lot harder than the cake walk ones I'm taking now. But it will be so much fun with babies, sun, vacations, bbq's, and friends!

Spring break was both wonderful and lame. It was most unproductive spring break I've ever had! I didn't get all the things done that I wanted to. But it was wonderful seeing how it was all play. Ray loved ever second of it. He mostly played games and worked for a couple of hours each day. It was fun to spend time with our friends and each other. It will be hard to get back into the grove of things, especially since I managed to get a cold on top of being pregnant. I hope it goes away quickly. I don't think having the baby while having a cold would be ideal. Especially since I can't really breathe with all the congestion I'm dealing with.

Oh yes, I did have my appointment this past week as well. And to my dismay, I hadn't progressed, which I expected, but was still bummed to hear. The doctor did say that I was 75% thinned. So that's good, but I'm still only dilated at a one. However, now I am all for waiting another week to have this baby. Next weekend would be perfect. It will give me another week to finish all my classes (the ones that I said I would finish over spring break) and to have my whole family here, since it will be their spring break. And I do believe it's Ray's family's as well, so it would be nice for them to come visit too during that time. It would be the best for both families. And although, me and Ray will still have school, it will be easier to deal with having my mom to help with the adjustment and to babysit when I have my class. But she'll probably come this week now that I don't want her to come haha. Isn't that how it works? Well, we will see.

This summer, me and Ray are planning on staying in Cedar. I will be taking four classes so that we won't have to pay for our housing during the summer. I also get $2,500 grant to help pay for my classes, which if we didn't have, I wouldn't be taking any classes. Ray just applied for a job at a nursing home just down the road. So he'll be working full time there and getting experience in the nursing field. I'm hoping that my current job will open up another lab during the summer on campus so that I will be able to work and bring our baby girl with me. We really need the money, so we're both hoping for it to happen. It will also help me to be motivated to loose weight and do my homework. The school is about 2 miles....ish away so I could walk to and from work each day. And while at work, I'll just be at the computer manning the lab so it will be easy for me to do my homework seeing how there will be nothing else to do. It'd just be perfect! But we'll see if it actually happens. Pray for us!

My goal this summer is to loose 35 pounds. I gained 20 pounds from my pregnancy and then the 15 I gained when I first moved down here to school. I'm glad I have good friends who will help me. We plan on going walking every day. Their pregnant as well and it will help them through their labor. At least that's what the doctor's say. Plus its just plan old good for you! Its going to be baby mania here! We're all so excited. My friend, Ada, is due in July. And then our other friend, Amanda, is due in October, I believe. She already has a sweet little girl, Emery, who we absolutely adore! And then we have a few neighbors who are expecting during the summer also. So it will be fun. I look forward to it, just not the school part. I really hope I'll be motivated enough to do well in my classes. I don't really have a choice though.

We have two big trips planned for the summer. My family is going to Newport, Oregon for a week and then driving down the coast. I'm so excited to take Ray! I'm not sure how it will pan out with a baby, but my family will be there to help so I'm not too worried. Then in august our annual trip to Lake Powell. I'm so excited this year! I won't be sick. I'll be able to enjoy myself and actually have fun and do things. I plan on leaving our little girl with my family while we're there. Just the thought of taking her scares me. A whole week in the blistering hot sun, having to nurse in the night and during the day. I don't think Ray's family will handle it well. And I think that it will be a nice break for me and Ray. Have some time to ourselves and just enjoy time together. I'm sure I'll have a hard time being away and my mommy insticts will come through. But I think it will be for the best.

I look forward to having a new addition to our family. At times it seems overwhelming and I'm not sure how we'll be able to do it with everything else going on. But the constant reassurance from the spirit, friends, and family help me so much. I know her sweet little spirit will be such a blessing in our lives. She will add so much to our little family and we will learn so much for her. I'm excited for this new step in mine and Ray's journey. I know it won't always be wonderful and how we want it to be, but I know it will be so worthwhile.

Spring Break!! .......and still no baby.

This past week has been so stressful with school and teachers cramming in tests before spring break. Ray had 3 tests this week and I had one. I was really hoping for the baby to come so then I could wait to take my test till I felt more better about it, but I guess its just good get it over with.

Just the fact that its "spring break" makes me feel better, even though its practically no different from the rest of my days except for working at my job less. Which is a downfall, since we need the money. I have four classes that I'm going to try and finish while we have this break. Then I'll only have 3 left to worry about.

As for the baby, Ray thinks she'll come after her due date and I'll have to be induced. Which would be absolutely awful, since the doctor said that they let first time mothers go way over their due date, so they wouldn't induce me till the 12th of April. And that is waaayyy too long. I suppose it wouldn't be so bad if I was feeling better, but this nausea thing is getting really old. I hate feeling sick all the time and throwing up things. I don't know what I would do without Ray. He's always there helping me, and making sure I'm ok.

I haven't felt any cramping or braxon hicks ( I think that's what their called) that most women feel during their last few weeks before their baby comes. But each woman is different. I just wish I felt something other than nausea that would tell me if this baby is coming soon or not. But I guess I should be grateful, since some woman say that the false contractions and whatnot can be very painful. So with all that, I think its safe to say that our baby won't be born over spring break, darn it. I do have an appointment next week though, so we'll see if I've dilated any further. My last appointment, which was two weeks ago, said I was at a 1. So cross your fingers :).

Highlights of 2009

Well I figure this will probably be the longest post I ever write while blogging. So feel free not to read it. Its mostly for my benefit anyways.

1. Getting Pregnant

We started school in January in a nice little apartment right across the street from the school. It was a one bedroom/one bathroom apartment. But it was perfect for us. I loved living close to the school to be able to walk everyday. Our biggest surprise came when I played an April fools joke on Ray and having it actually be true. I made him believe I was pregnant, only to find out a week later that I really was. It was unexpected and we weren't quite sure what to think at first. But we soon became excited of the thought of a new little baby in addition to our family. We made plans for the baby to come in December a few days before our one year anniversary. It would be a new adventure for us and we started to prepare for it.

2. Moving to Lindon

During the semester we were trying to decide whether to stay in Cedar for the summer or move to Lindon and live with Ray's parents. I, of course, tried to fight it. I still was new to his family and didn't feel accepted yet. I thought of living with his family for an entire summer scared me to death. But in the end, we decided it would be cheaper and better for us. It was hard at first, and most of the time I didn't interact with his family. But as time passed, I felt more comfortable with them. It was a great learning experience for me and I grew to love them. I found myself wanting to be with them more and more and able to act myself around them. They taught me many things and helped mine and Ray's relationship grow.

3. Getting Pregnant Again!


Our biggest hardship during the summer was in May, when I miscarried. It was a hard thing for not only us but our friends and family. We soon found ourselves looking on the bright side of things. I would be able to finish school and have my degree. We weren't ready for kids yet and both of us agreed that we would wait until I was done with my bachelors before we started thinking about kids again. Of course, God had other things on his mind. By the end of June, I was pregnant again. All our carefulness was in vain, it only took one time of missing and bam I'm pregnant. We decided not to announce this time and wait until we were sure this was going to be a full term pregnancy. I was about 4 months pregnant before we told anyone. We found out it was a little girl and the above picture is me at 15 weeks. Our due date is April 1st. Ironic isn't it. Haha. This pregnancy has been really hard on both me and Ray. I have been sick all through out. Its been hard, trying to juggle school and all. But only 4 more weeks and I sick free! I'll just be tired out of my mind.

4. A New Car

Ray and I bought a new car during the summer. Ray always wanted a subaru, so that's what we got. I, however, thought we should get a more expensive car, nicer looking and all. But we didn't have the money, nor is it ever a good idea to give in to my wants. But our little subaru has been giving us a lot of trouble lately. We've been looking into selling it and getting a new one, a more expensive one. So maybe this is an exception to the rule of giving in to my wants.

5. Our California Trip





Working at HomeDepo and being pregnant is not my ideal life. I hated working there! Pregnancy just made everything worse. I wanted to get away. Ray was all too happy to oblige. As we did need a week with just us, away from everything. We planned a trip to six flags and then to California on the beach. It was most relaxing and wonderful! I loved just being with Ray and remembering all the reasons why I fell in love with him. Six Flags was amazing, except for the fact that after 6 hours of fun, you get so worn out. Our subaru did great on its first long road trip. It was definitely worth it. It was something Ray and I needed too.

6. Lake Powell








Ray's family has a houseboat that they use each year at lake powell. I was so excited to go as was the rest of the family. But if I knew ahead of time what it was going to be like, I would have stayed home. It was the most miserable trip of my life and it was all because of my pregnancy. I felt so awful during the trip I made everyone else not enjoy it either. Ray was so sweet the whole time in trying to help me. I, however, was a ornery girl the whole time. I felt bad for his family, they didn't know what was wrong and why I was acting how I was. We finally told them that I was pregnant, as we had no choice. I didn't want them thinking I was acting like a "b" for no reason. They all were more understanding after that. This year will be ten times better! I won't be sick :)

7. Moving Back to Cedar

Moving is so stressful I decided. We have way too much stuff to begin with. But the good news is that we got into scholarship housing, meaning no rent. Its been such a blessing to us. I don't know how we could have made rent payments on top of all the other expenses we have. God is sure looking out for us. We are a lot farther away from campus than we used to be. Our apartment is also bigger. Two bedrooms each equipped with a bathroom and walk in closet. We love it and hope to stay as long as we can.

8. Our First Year Anniversary

It's hard to think we have been married a year already! But then its hard to think that we haven't been together our whole lives. Funny huh. Ray booked us a night at the bed and breakfast we stayed in during our honeymoon. It's in Manti, called Yardley Inn. It is gorgeous! We love it. My favorite part about it, is that it has this gigantic jacuzzi hot tub in our room. Ahhhh pure bliss right there. The only problem is that it's really expensive. It was most wonderful though.

9. Christmas!


Christmas was so fun this year! We got to be with both of our families. We spent christmas even with my family and then in the morning after presents were opened we drove up to his family's house and spent time with them. It was a great break. I went a little overboard on the decorations this year. But I wanted it to be special. And even though Ray complained while putting them up, I do believe he loved it when it was all up and looking beautiful. We had the decorations stay up for quite sometime. Jemma came home from Japan after being there for the entire fall semester. We got to spend christmas with her. It was great having the whole family there. We loved it.

Well there you have it. The highlights of 2009. It was a great year! It will be interesting to see how this year pans out with the baby. We'll keep you posted though.

Our First Attempt

After reading about my friends blogs, I decided that maybe Ray and I should try it. How hard could it be after all? Now, we are both horrible at journal writing so hopefully this will be different. And hopefully we'll be able to figure out how it all works. Until then, bare with us!