Update Overdue

I'm so sorry I have been MIA for the past month, there has been so much going on. Most of it can be due to me thinking of better and funner things than blogging. But anyways, here's a little bit of what has been going on, in no particular order:

1. Cooking, Cleaning, Entertaining
To be honest, I feel like I am going through that "nesting" process that happens during pregnancy. I can't stand to have a messy house. Not to mention how much I have enjoyed cooking....sweets that is. You know how I wanted to loose weight? Haha well I'm not gaining, which is the good part - thanks to running and working out everyday, but I'm definietly not helping myself loose it. And what better way to have an excuse to make the sweets than to entertain. It has been so fun to have big BBQs and have great friends over to eat, laugh, and play. And what better than to have people over and not feel embarrassed cause my house being a disaster? Lovin this "nesting" feeling and so is my hubby....lets hope is stays awhile. The picture below? One of my favorite meals right now - stuffed peppers....oh man my mouth is watering.

2. Wayman Reunion
Every year my Dad's side of the family goes to Palisade Lake, right outside of Manti, and camps. Since I've been married, Ray and I haven't been able to attend, until this year. It was so fun, even though we only stayed one night. It was wonderful to see everyone and Mady had a blast. She was in heaven having so many kids to play with, not to mention the lake and pools we had set up. We didn't even try to put her down for her naps. She didn't do well in the night because of the wind. Unfortunetly, Cedar City's wind followed us. Mady woke up quite a few times saying, "Mady's scared! Mady's scared!". Poor girl. She slept really good the next night, in my aunts house. Hopefully we'll be able to make it next year.

3. Stake Youth Conference Trek
I had the wonderful opportunity to go with my awesome girls on a trek. It was a quite stenuous, difficult, emotionally draining, fun trip. I am so glad that I was able to go with such amazing youth and be able to experience something that was a little too real compared to what the pioneers really went through. I am so grateful for the chance I had to become closer with my girls as well as my leaders. We had a lot of fun admist the circumstance. And I'm so grateful to get to know and become friends with the other youth in our stake. We have such strong youth in our stake and I am so grateful to them for their faithfulness, love, and compassion that was shown. It was a trip I will never forget. Below is a picture of my family. Brother Rose and I were the Ma and Pa of one of the biggest families. We had 13 children - 6 girls and 7 boys.

This is a picture of the girls in my ward. Aren't they just as lovely as ever? From right to left - Jamie, Morrigan, Tori, Tabby, and me.

4. Playing Endlessly with Mady

Mady has been so funny lately with everything she has been doing. She keeps us constantly on our toes, while making us laugh endlessly. She is always watching us, to where we are starting to have to keep her out while we do things. Case and point - she loves putting on deodorant uder her "ampits". And due to my carelessness, I have had to put my tampon box way out of her reach. Due to her trying to use one while sitting on the "big potty". She loves to try and feed her fishy. And don't even mention the fridge. She loves getting her own food and drink. She's been really good and eating things but not finishing them. She eats a couple bits then she's done. Then she brings us something else she wants to eat, again and again. She is getting really good and counting to ten and saying her ABCs. I also love that she says please and thank you to just about anything you give or do for her. I just can't get enough of her! Love love love her!



I had to share this picture, it just cracks me up how funny she is. She wanted to go outside, but I told her not till she got dressed. So her way of getting dressed was to put on her pajama shirt, pink panties, and her boots.

Mady has also started to sit through movies. She loves sitting in her princess chair and watching whatever show. Dora the Explorer and Yo Gabba Gabba is what she will sit through episode after episode. I know, such a bad Mom for letting her watch them. But there are somedays where she does not want to go outside and play, and I have laundry, homework, cleaning, work, or cooking to do - sometimes all the above. So I think I'm entitled to some "Bad Mom Days". Don't you?

5. Friends

I can't even begin to describe how lucky we are to have such amazing friends surrounding us. In the past year we have grown so close to so many amazing people. The Munks, who have been there for us for quite sometime now, who are so amazing in every way. We are so sad we won't be able to live next door to them come next month, but we're glad that their only a ten minute drive away. I don't know what we would do without them. I can't even begin to express how grateful I am to the two cutest pregnant ladies I know, Kylee Dowse and Ashley Whetman. I love the girl time we have just hanging out outside while all three of our babes play. Mady loves playing with Maddox and Ty. And I love my girl time. We have loved getting to know our newest neighbors - the Burnetts. They are seriously such an awesome couple! Not only are they so fun and make us laugh constantly, Mady is in love with them. She is always asking for "Paul? Kylee? Where are they?" It is so cute. It has been so much fun hanging out with them. We love how active and full of energy they are, which makes us go out and have fun. Geez does that make us sound old? We love hanging out with them. Also I have to give a huge shout out to Ray's awesome Nursing buddies! We have gotten to know two couples who we absolutely love - Tricia and Joe, and Aaron and Taylor. Seirously these are the most amazing people ever. And don't even get me started on my besties Alicia and KayLa. These two girls are like my sisters. I don't know where I would be without them.  How lucky are we to have such awesome people to hang out with? So blessed!

6. Early Birthday Presents

Man this year I have been SPOILED! My Dad has been working on Ray and I's birthday present for a couple of months now. Just last week my Dad brought down the finishing project. Isn't it amazing!? We LOVE it! Best present ever! We love how we have a place for all our important papers, our bills, coupons, paychecks, homework papers, and so on. It has been wonderful! Thank you so much Dad! You did such an amazing job! Love you!!



As you see from above, I said "Present 'S'. Yep, that is plural. My bestie, KayLa, bought me a present that ties the best present ever. She bought me tickets to my favorite musical - Les Miserables!!!!! She is sooooo awesome! We go this Wednesday and we couldn't be more excited. I have seriously been counting down the days. Thank you so much, KayLa! You are seriously the BEST!!! Oh PS - have you seen that their making a new Les Miserables??? I am so excited! It comes this December!! Go HERE to watch the preview. It may or may not have brought tears to my eyes.



7. Glitter Toes!

I've been wanting some cute toes FOREVER now that it has been summer. So one day I decided to do something about it. I was a little skeptical, but thanks to this awesome girl and her amazing blog, I was able to make my toes look FANTASTIC! I wish I had gotten a picture of all of my friend's toes, but mine will have to suffice. I love love love them! 

8. BOOK!

I finally found a book to read that is not a textbook! And man, it has been so hard not to just be consumed by it and forget the world. It is SOO good! I've heard about the Wheel of Time series back in highschool, but I never read it. Thanks to my neighbor, Paul, I am sucked into it. I haven't even been watching any of my tv shows - which is saying something. And to just think, there are 13 books in the series. I'm nervous for what this means for me come fall when school starts and I'm taking 15-18 credits worth of Master classes. I don't see any good coming from that. Hopefully I will be able to manage my time between it and school. Or maybe take a break all together. With me luck on that one. 

9. Job Offers

I feel as if I have been so blessed lately with potential job opportunities. Remember when I told you about my job interview I had with a firm in SLC? If not go here - Item number 2. Anyways, I haven't heard back from their firm if I have or haven't gotten the job. But the more I have thought about it over the past few weeks, the more I am completely fine if I don't get it. Even though it is exactly what I want and the pay would be nice as well as benefits and most of all the experience, I feel it would be very hard on my family. In the meantime, I have met with two other firms, both of which has offered me potential jobs. One in Orem and the other in Ephraim. We haven't decided anything yet, but we are so grateful for the opportunities coming our way and know the Lord is looking out for us.

10. Horseback Riding!

I can't even begin to explain how awesome today was. It was the BEST DAY EVER! Seriously, I was in Heaven! Our amazing friends, Taylor and Aaron, invited us to their Grandparents farm just outside of New Harmony to go horseback riding with them. Their Grandpa had the most beautiful land I have ever seen with the most gorgeous log cabin house, backyard, arenas, barns (yes that's plural), and everything! He has over 80 acres of land! I wish I had taken pictures of his gorgeous house. It was like I was living my dream. It was sooo beautiful. The house was big enough for their whole family to come stay for reunions and such. They had so many rooms, great rooms, kitchens, bathrooms galore, game rooms, and so on. It was amazing. And their horses were so pretty. He has about 10, I think, maybe more. Next time I'll take pictures. Taylor invited me to go riding with her more. Oh, how I have missed it! I can't thank them enough for making today the best day ever for me! It was so much fun! Here are a few pictures of the day: 

Well there you have it. Most of what has been going on at the Martels. I promise I'll be better at updating. If I'm not, feel free to bug me about it. :) 

A Dramatic Turn of Events

I have been thinking long and hard over if I was going to post this or not. I wrote it all down hoping that it would help me get it off my chest and mind. And seeing how this is kind of my journal it was written here. Much of this is very personal and maybe a little too detailed. But this will be printed and added to the rest of my blog books that will be passed down. So this post is for me.

June 8, 2012
Today is a day I will always remember. I think I'm still in shock from the days events. Today I had a man die on me - in my arms.

It was the second day of our Stake Youth Conference Pioneer Trek. We were out at Three Peaks, just fifteen minutes west of Enoch. The day before we had gone four miles, it was quite hard on the kids and even myself. The sun was so hot. We were told that today was going to be even harder and longer. We had planned to go around eight miles through very rough terrain and up steep slopes. It was very trying. Luckily we had the wind blowing, making it more bearable than yesterday. Of course it meant more dust in the eyes and mouth, but I think everyone would take that over the heat.
We had gone about four miles when it happened. It was around 12:00-12:30pm. We were about a forth of a mile out of our designated lunch stop, when a man, I would know later as George Kaczmar collapsed. I saw him trip and try to get up but fell again and didn't move. I rushed over to try and help the other leaders. We flipped him onto his back and I immediately grabbed his legs to elevate them, as I assumed it was heat exhaustion. I yelled to have everyone back away and give us space. When I looked down again, his face was dark bluish/purple and his body began to spas as his eyes rolled into the back of his head. I knew then this wasn't heat exhaustion. I knew he was suffering from a major heart attack or stroke. I thought heat stroke and yelled, "He's having a stoke!" I yelled that we needed the nurse who had come on this trek, now. He husband responded to me saying she had gone home sick the day before. I felt my stomach drop. This man was going to die if we didn't get medical help soon.
I knew enough that we needed to start CPR and started asking the leaders around me if they knew how. Everyone was panicking and I realized then that if we were going to save this man's life we needed to act quickly. Two weeks ago for our Young Women activity we had CPR training on dolls and a pillow girl. We mostly let the girls preform CPR while the leaders watched. I will be forever grateful to Bonnie Imlay, our teacher. without her telling us everything about CPR, I wouldn't have been able to do what I did next.
When I saw that people were ignoring me and were trying to push him over onto his side hoping that would help him breath, I started yelling, "Stop! We have to do CPR! I need someone to help me do CPR, do you know how? Ok, good. You start the compressions, I'll breath. I need someone to count for me! Is someone calling 911? We need shade!" And on and on I went. Finally, people started to calm down. As another Brother and I switched off doing compressions. We kept checking for the pulse that was never there. And after a few minutes of CPR, we did get a few breaths. But they were far apart, about 15-20 seconds in between each breath.

As I heart the man on the phone with 911 trying to describe our location, I knew we needed coordinates. Just the night before, Kristy, one of my other YW leaders, had used her smart phone for GPS. I looked frantically through the legs of the people around me to find one of my youth. I spotted Morrigan Kelly and yelled at her to get Kristy. She must have heard me because when I felt a hand on my shoulder telling me to take a break, it was her.
I kept going. It had been at least twenty minutes from the last time we had him breathing his shallow, short gasps. I had remembered from Bonnie, that you could not stop until the EMTs arrived, nor did I want to stop. I could feel myself breaking his ribs as I did my compressions. I saw his mouth foam as I tried to breath for him. I saw his stomach blowing up as we pumped more air into him. I remembered soon after those twenty minutes had passed, I knew he was gone. I could just feel it, somehow. I had someone switch me out at this point as I started crying. I was glad Kristy was there the comfort I desperately needed. I remember looking around seeing that all the youth and other leaders were gone. I was glad they weren't there for this. I remember looking at the small group around me thinking, "Do they know he's gone?" But as they worked, I still hoped. I was no nurse; my knowledge of the medical world was very slim - Ray was the nurse, and I helped him study, I watched videos with him, and let him practice on me. But in reality, I knew next to nothing. I could be wrong. He could still come back. We just have to hold out until the medics get here.

We were told life flight could not land near us and we would have to take him to the shooting range, which was a mile or two back from where we came. We moved him onto the trailer hooked to the Rhino and continued our CPR. We stopped a little ways down the road when we were told life flight could land just above us on the hill. About 5-10 minutes later, two EMTs came running down the hill and took over. They got a D-Fib into him and started him on EPI by drilling into his shin. They shocked him twice to restart his heart, but he was still flat lined. About ten minutes of them working on him they said they would need to call it. All I remember thinking was that he's dead and his wife doesn't even know. The few leaders around me all started crying as we all hugged each other for the support we needed. I couldn't stop crying. I didn't even know this man and I felt like everyone had given his life to me to save. I had failed them. I had failed him.

We split up - half going back to the youth and half going with the body. I opted to go back with the youth. I didn't want to face his family and friends. We had decided not to tell the youth what had happened. We would go straight back to camp, pack up, and go home. We took a detour, which made it so we were only a mile away from camp. Once everyone got there, we all gathered around the Stake Presidency, where we were told that he had passed away and that we were all to pack up and go home. All I could think about was getting back home to Ray and Mady. I needed their love and comfort.

My mind keeps replaying the incident, trying to find something I missed; knowing I must have done something wrong. He would have lived if only I had did something differently. I just know it. I must have missed something that I could have prevented. I think that's what I'm scared of. That even thought I"m not a nurse and don't know very much about anything that way, and I know I did everything to the best of my knowledge right then, I could have saved him if only I had known this, or maybe have remembered this from when I was helping Ray studying it or something. I was the leader in trying to save that man's life. Everyone was looking to me and listening to my instructions. And I feel as if I have failed them.

June 14, 2012
For the past  week, I have received call after call from people who was there beside me helping me save Brother Kaczmar's life. Each of them telling me how amazed they are by me, how exceptional I was to take charge in such a crisis, that their life is changed because of me. Oh, how I hated these calls. I do not feel exceptional. I do not feel amazing. I don't know why when everyone around me was panicking I stayed calm. I don't know why I took charge so quickly and yelled out instructions, when I hardly knew what I was doing myself. I couldn't have done it without everyone there.

I went to his viewing. I was told it would help to get closure. I guess in a way it did. I'm glad my mother came with me. I don't think I could have done it alone. The line was so very long. His wife, Linda, came out of the room to talk to people because it was so long and they had to start the funeral service soon. When she came our way, my mother thought that she should tell her who I was, since I wasn't going to say anything. When my mom told her, she just looked at us, nodded her head and moved on. Her reaction crushed me. It just added to my fears - that she looked at me in a way that said I didn't save her husband. I failed her. I had been trying to get over those feelings and she brought them to life. I just wanted to leave. But my mother made me stay to walk through the rest of the line with his children and then to see him in the casket. I didn't want to do either of them. I didn't want to tell the kids who I was either, because of their mother's reaction. So when they asked me who I was, I just said I was on the trek with him. However, my mother opened her mouth again. Their reaction was different though. They all hugged me so tightly and said thank you. I think it was because of his six children's reaction that I have felt more peace about this whole thing. It was hard seeing him and when I did, I couldn't help but sob. Being reminded of everything that had happened when I have been trying ever to hard to get rid of the memory.

Now that all is said and done, I'm glad I went. I think it was the closure I needed. Most of all I'm glad it is all over. People aren't calling me anymore, no talk about his funeral coming up. Its over.

Top Five of the Week

This week has been a pretty darn good week if I say so myself. See for yourself:

1. Little Surprises

Ray and I have been having a hard time doing our usual date nights where we go out and have fun with or without Mady due to our schedules. I get up and leave by 8am and don't get home till after 5pm. By that time I'm tired and all I want to do is cuddle up on the couch with Mady and Ray and watch a nice movie while I attempt my homework. Ray works at nights and so he has to leave at 9pm, which usually means a quick power nap before he starts. So we get about a couple hours together. Anyways I woke up one morning to this - which totally made my day. And if your wondering, yes, it was heavenly!

2. Tender Mercies

A couple of weeks ago my Professor gave us some information for a possible job for a CPA firm up north looking to hire. I thought, "Why not?" and applied. The same day I sent in my resume and cover letter, the guy emailed me back saying that his firm wasn't hiring but the firm he shared the building with was. BIG MISTAKE! He was kind enough to tell me that he would forward my resume on and good luck. Because all my letters and stuff were directed specifically to him, I dismissed the embarrassing mistake and forgot all about it. Then last Thursday as I was I headed down to St. George with Ray, Mady and my good friend KayLa, I received a call from the partner of this other firm. He told me he was headed down to St. George and was wondering if he could stop in Cedar to interview me. I was beyond shocked. We agreed to meet up in St. George, seeing how I was on my way there, and planned an interview at his GORGEOUS vacation house. A little insert here - KayLa let me borrow some of her clothes seeing how I wasn't dressed for an interview and we had already left my house. Huge thanks to her! The interview went perfectly and he wanted me to come up for a second interview with the other partner. That happens this Tuesday. So stay tuned!

3. An Amazing Dad

I can't not stop talking about what a perfect husband I caught. Seriously. He is amazing. As you know he has been working nights. After a particularly long night, with hardly any sleep, he wanted to badly to come to St. George with me on Thursday (see above). He knew KayLa and I had planned to go shopping, so he offered to take Mady to the water park. Amazing, no? And not only did he do that, but while I was at my interview, he took Mady to the temple. She was so ecstatic! She is obsessed with temples, so seeing one up close was so awesome for her. I'd upload the video of her freaking out, but it won't work. So this picture will suffice. 

4. Ephraim
This weekend was so awesome. I decided I really wanted to go home for the four day weekend and after having my interview and knowing I needed to go up for the other interview that just made my justification into a need. So Mady and I packed up, left the hubby, and jumped in the car with my friend Alicia. I loved being with my family. And Ephraim - oh how I have missed you. The Scandinavian Festival was going on as well, despite the AWFUL, COLD, MISERABLE weather. I did get some cute cheap jewelry to make up for it, though. My family then headed out today to visit our family's graves and head to up Idaho, where most of our family is. They dropped me off at Ray's parents place, where I was treated to a delicious meal. I love my families!

5. More Surprises!
Ray worked all last night and didn't get home until 6am. He then got up at 10 to get to Church and speak in Sacrement ( which I am SO bummed I missed) and then leave right after to go back to work until 9pm that night. So he wasn't going to come until Monday early afternoon so he could have a nice good nights rest. So it was a big surprise when he called me around seven saying he got off work early and was already on the road. I LOVE these kind of surprises! Especially when I haven't seen him for a few days - yes call me pathetic. Oh, and don't mind my grunge look. So if you excuse me now, I must go spend some time wtih my honey. Happy Memorial Day!!

My top TEN Friday's'

Yes, I know I've skipped two weeks but to be frank, I just wasn't in a blogging mood. But I will update on what's been going on these past two weeks in no particular order:

1. Grey's Anatomy

Can I just say how much I am addicted to this show?! It's getting just a tad bit ridiculous. You can blame this on why I haven't blogged, why my house looks the way it does, why I can't do anything until the episode is finished, and so on and so forth.

2. Going Home

We went home just the weekend of Mother's day and goodness it was wonderful! We spent our weekend up in Lindon visiting Ray's family. Mady loved being outside, I'm pretty sure she spent more time outside than in. It was so nice being there. Ray was also kind enough on Sunday to drive to my parents house and spend time with them. We ended up not leaving until late in the evening we were having so much fun. It was such a wonderful Mother's day weekend to be able to spend it with both our families.

3. Mother's Day

      Mother's day is such a special time for me. It always has been while growing up. I always remember my Dad making sure each of us kids knew our jobs for the day - whether it was cooking, dressing the younger kids, or just lending a hand when needed. Now that I'm older, this day has grown even closer to my heart as I see more and more what an amazing Mother my Mom truly is. I can't thank her enough for the unconditional love and service she has shown me over the years. My life would be complete if I become at least half the women she is.

      I have also been blessed with not only one amazing mom in my life, but two. I married such an amazing man who was raised by such an amazing woman. Barb has been such a wonderful example to me and I am so lucky to have her an my Mother-in-Law. Thank you, both of you, for your continuing love and example. I love you guys so much!

4. Solar Eclipse

Did anyone else get to see the solar eclipse?? It was pretty cool, right? We had the perfect seating for the event. Our friend, Taylor, opened her house up to us and our family guests who came to see the awesomeness. She has a cabin just north of Kanaraville with two balconies. It was so fun to eat amazing food, watch the eclipse, and play some games. Thank you Taylor for an amazing night!

  5. Presents

Did I mention the amazing gifts I was given this past week? My sweet husband bought me a new X-Box, beautiful flowers and a lovely card, and an I-pod holder for running. He was also so sweet and made a delicious breakfast and got Mady all ready for Church. Pretty sure he won the most amazing husband award. Ray's parents gave me a Bosch bread maker. Most amazing thing EVER! I don't have to spend 5+ hours making bread anymore - it takes me one hour! Start to finish. New favorite toy! My family gave me a wonderful card full of money, my favorite treats, an I-pod, and some other cute things I can't remember. Thank you so much all of you! Totally made my day!

   6. BBQ

This is past weekend we celebrated the end of the school year with a BBQ with our awesome friends. Ray cooked some amazing chicken and our friends brought some delicious desert and dip. It was so perfect. It was so fun getting to know everyone better and playing some fun games. Hopefully we can do it again soon!

 

7. My Knee is Better!

For a while my knee hurt so bad. The pain was the pain you feel when you hit your funny bone - not pleasant.  I couldn't go down steps, and running was out of the question. I was so scared I was going to have to tell my team that I wouldn't be able to participate in the summer games with them. But finally after icing it pretty good for a while and staying off of it, it went away. I have no idea what it was but I sure am glad to be back to running and playing sports!

8. Sports

I just found out last week that my stake has not only basketball but volleyball too! They play twice a  week for a couple of hours and it has been so wonderful! For a long time I felt like I had lost a part of me, that being sports. Playing again has brought back so much happiness, I find myself happier all the time. I have also met so many great people. Can't wait till Wednesday!!

9. Mady

Mady has been so funny the past couple of weeks. She seriously is the joy of my life. I can't get enough of this girl! She is growing up way to quickly and learning way too fast. A few classic moments this week: Standing over her potty saying psssssss. After washing dishes saying, "Bye-bye bubbles, I love you." She loves Dora the Explorer and Yo Gabba Gabba. She will now actually say or do whatever they are doing. It pretty cute and we get a kick out of watching her.

10. Ray

Ray has been so amazing these past few weeks. My graduate program is very expensive and coming up with the money to finance me has been quite difficult. Due to my job working in SUU's Auditor Department and being able to only work the normal 8-5 shift, Ray has opted to work the night shift from 9pm-6am. Then he watches Mady until I get home at 5pm. Luckily we have a daughter who sleeps in until 10:30 for him. But everyday I come home to a happy baby and a clean house. He is seriously the best husband/dad ever. I don't know what I did to deserve such an amazing man. Thank you honey! I love you! Your sacrifice does not go unnoticed.

Top Five Friday

What a week! I am SO glad that we are at the end of it. I thought it would never get here. Here's my top five favorite things that happened this week:

1. Mady Came Home
After ten days of Mady being at my parents house in Ephraim, she is finally home! I have missed her SO much! We were able to get a lot of studying done, but it is super nice to have her home. I have been soaking her up! I love that she has to take my hand to show me a bug outside. Or bring a ton of books to me so I can read to her. Or go play outside with her for hours on end. Oh I have missed her! 

2. Going to the Temple
Yesterday, Ray finished his last final and I took off work early to celebrate the end of our semester. We headed down to St. George to share a wonderful date that involved a session, Red Lobster, and some shopping. It was so nice to do a session together, it has been awhile due to school, finding a babysitter for 4+ hours, and work. It was just what we needed with all the crazy things that have been going on in our lives.

  3. Graduation

The semester is over! Which means graduation! I was finished with my Bachelors in Accounting in December but because SUU only does graduation in the Spring, I can officially say I AM GRADUATED! I chose not to walk this year because I will be doing the same thing next spring, only I will be doing it with Ray. And I can't wait! I did however go support all my friends that graduated. Especially my bestest friend - this girly! Isn't she gorgeous? AND its also her birthday today! So here's a shout out to the most amazing gorgeous sweetest friend ever - Congrats KayLa and happy birthday!

1.      4. New Calling

  I was called into Young Women's just last week. I was quite nervous to say the least but after going on Sunday and to our Tuesday night activity I am super excited to be working with so many wonderful girls and leaders. One of the girls, Tabby, gave me a cute basket of goodies to welcome me. It was so sweet. I look forward to all the wonderful things that are in store with this calling!

 5. Time

       I am so happy to have TIME! I was able to go running and come home and clean my house. I made a delicious crockpot meal for dinner. I made bread. I spent a lot of time with Mady. And now I'm here in bed with my sweetheart watching a movie and blogging. The best part about doing all these awesome things is that I don't have the guilt I usually had while doing something that did not include homework. I will savor these few days I have before I start my summer classes.